****For women only****

I wasn't sure how I would feel about losing my breasts. I know for some women it can be a very traumatic experience and they often feel like their femininity is gone when they have them removed. I can say that it is a very strange feeling to look down and just be flat and then to reach down and feel a concave area in my chest-that's just weird. I hate that my babies have no soft place to rest their heads. Before my surgery I went to a store that sells prosthetics and I had thought I might do that later, but you know, I really think I am okay with this for now. I am considering reconstruction later, but for now, I'm gonna just live with it and try to be happy. And I know this is going to sound strange, but you know what I really LIKE about not having breasts? I can feel my heart beat. It's so crazy, I know. I bet you rolled your eyes just then. I mean I can put my hand down on my chest and it's just like my heart is right there almost on the surface. I just imagine that Jesus is right there, living in my heart. And when I reach down and feel it beating it's almost like I can hear Him saying to me, "It's okay, my child, I am right here with you all the way. Remember, I complete you. This was a small price to pay for what I have planned for you."