What a weekend!

Again, I am so thankful to be home and in my own bed. Apparently I've been in bed too much because my back has been hurting today, but really I still have no complaints about pain. I can't believe it. Of course I take a Tylox every 4 hours, but I still thought I'd be all uncomfortable and more out of it. I can't remember a time when my back hurt from being in bed too much. How great is that? All I really need this week is for a few of my girlfriends to come over and lie in bed with me and tell me funny stories that don't make me laugh. Sign up sheets are in the back.

I just went back and reread all the comments you've written on my blog over the last few days and I just appreciate those so much. Your support and love has been so precious to me during this time.

You know, it's only been about 6 weeks since my diagnosis, but my how my life has changed. Why does it take something like this for us to regain our focus and reorganize our priorities? I just have so much love and respect for God that I don't ever want to disappoint him. He has done so much for me, how could I ever repay him? Sometimes I don't get to do what I want or things I say don't come out right, or sometimes I just forget stuff. But I am so glad that God knows my heart and He knows my intentions. I just want him to be proud of me.

I feel like God has allowed this in my life for many reasons. When I was a new Christian I thought maybe God was punishing me when bad things happened to me. But I know so much more about his great love for me now and I know that He has a plan for my life and that bad times draw us closer to Him and help us realize how dependent on Him we are. I tried to live without Him many times in my life and truly it just didn't work out. There was always a feeling of dissatisfaction-like there was something I was missing or something more that I needed to fill that void No doubt someone reading this is feeling that way. Are you constantly searching? Are you always thinking that if this would change or that would work out, then maybe I could be happy and content. I don't know about you, but if you feel that way, then perhaps that missing piece is Jesus Christ. My life is nowhere near perfect. Good grief, I have struggles everyday. I am not anything close to what I want to be. Really, on my own I am just a loser. BUT, the good news is, Jesus fills that void. The thing that gets me up in the morning, the thing that puts a smile on my face and completes me (it's not "the knight", as great as he is). It's a life lived for Christ.
I want you to experience that too. I'm here to tell you, you don't know what your next mammogram may show, or your next physical may reveal, or even if you have a tomorrow. The search for satisfaction is exhausting. Wouldn't it be great to find that piece to your puzzle? Jesus said "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matt. 11:28-30

Oh, and on another note: Pam, my wonderful oncology nurse friend told me yesterday that now I can mow my grass without a shirt on. Isn't that great news? Tomorrow's gonna be a warm day...drive slow.