dad update

Pale and frail. That's how my brother described my dad yesterday. Thankfully, he went with them to the doctor just so we could have another person who knows what the doctor is saying. They did another chest x-ray but were not able to get the results yesterday. They upped his acid reflux med and scheduled him for that test where they put the camera down your esophagus and check out your chest and upper body all the way to your small intestine. That'll be on Monday. They also will schedule a CT scan on his chest. My brother said dad had to rest walking from one building to the other and was terribly weak. He's lost a considerable amount of weight and is still not eating enough to even gain any strength. I just don't know what to think. It's just miserable to realize how long it's been since he has felt good. BUT, I have come to terms with the fact that the best place for my mom is at home with my dad. Really, he needs her more than I need her. I tried to talk to her last night and I hope I was able to release her from the responsibility we feel as mothers to be there for our children through heck and high water. I hope I convinced her that I will be okay. The Knight will be there for me at the hospital and my MIL will be here at the house to care for the kids, church family and other friends are handling the food and any other miscellaneous things we may need. THEN when dad is feeling better, she can come up and "kick it on in there" for us. She seemed like she was coming to terms with it and when I hung up I felt SOOOO much better. This has been a real source of stress for me because I know she wants to be here for me as much as I want her to be. But for whatever reason, it doesn't seem to be working out. I can't imagine what God is doing, but you know he works behind the scenes all the time if we are his children. I imagine him always there just working on and planning our lives for us. All we have to do is ask him to take care of it. I have and I know mom has and now we have to let our human emotions get in line and let it go. Everything is going to be alright. It'll all be good in the end.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I'm doing laundry, the girls have gone skating with a friend, the little man is taking a nap and the knight is doing all kind of "honey do" list kinds of things- straightening the garage, putting songs on my ipod, putting pictures on my digital picture frame, and other knightly kinds of stuff. He is the best. Last night after I got off the phone with mom and our dreaded conversation was over, I treated myself to a night in the recliner watching 2 of my favorite movies-You've got Mail AND Sleepless In Seattle, starring you know who-ME!Okay- Meg. But it was DE-lightful! I don't know why, but I have a hard time just sitting and watching tv. Most of the time I'm doing something else(reading, folding laundry, on the computer, the phone, etc.) and tv is in the background. I'll go for now, I don't want to bore you. I have so many things I'd like to talk about before I go on a writing on hiatus (or into the hospital as some would see it.) I mean I haven't even told you about my fabulous children.
I will leave you with a neat verse from the book of

Nahum- 1:7 The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and he knoweth them that trust in him.

Do you know my Lord? It's a good verse among some that are troubling, but that just reminds me again that ---life is not fair but God is good.